Yet again I have reached a new period in life. One where I have learned new and old lessons. I guess I now understand lessons which were trying to be taught to me for years, but you know how it goes. You don't understand them till its time for them to be understood.
Now...I definitely understand.
But life is getting easier. As I reminisce on times past, good ad bad, I can now see clearer of what I did, what I should have done..and what I will and could do.
The following is something I posted on facebook in October 2009: That was one period, and I am so past that......
This, my friends, is what is taking place in my life, now more than ever before. I have always struggled with the question of 'who am I?' and over the years realised that it really is a simple question- if you really know who you are. There is a level of 'connectedness' that I used to feel with the universe that has somehow disconnected. This could be due to me allowing myself to fall within the conformity of people's definition of myself. For the period that I was away from facebook, I began to examing myself and face the reality of 'me.' I began to see 'me' from everyone's perspectives, draw my opinions from that, face the ugly truth and am now willing and ready to focus on myself and define what is truly 'me.' I know many of you have been through this already and some are maybe now experiencing it. One thing I have found is MOST important, which someone (you know who you are) has always mentioned to me is to: ENJOY YOUR OWN COMPANY.
THAT, my dear friends is the secret. I could definitely say that I love myself and enjoy my company (and I no longer feel guilty or swell headed for saying it) For those of you who are still on this journey like myself and many others....I wish you the best of luck.
My news and goods for 2010:
1. I know who I am
2. I know who my friends are
3. I know what makes me happy
I see a trend here in comparison with last year, and it proves to me that I have improved....My news and goods are finally focused on me giving me happiness...
IRIENESS!
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
I write....
I write to see
To open my doors to the
Spirits and earth that
Whisper to me.
I write to see truth and lies
I write to see ugly cries of reality
That shout to me through printed ink
I write to think about an exodus of things that come to me
late at night.
I write to hear the shouts and screams
Of nightmare dreams of hell
While smiles stretch skin across off- white teeth.
I write to hear.
To listen to the words of which i cannot bear to think
About the stink that pierces early morning air
I hear thoughts of vagrants who wander without a care
Along abandoned streets.
You see, I write to feel
Things which I am not allowed to say
Things that I will reminisce on one day and laugh and cry
Things which scare me
Because sometimes it is just me that I see
Through my pen.
And I feel me
And I feel who I am not and who I am meant to be
And all the feelings that I have got to write.
And still I write
To be.
To open my doors to the
Spirits and earth that
Whisper to me.
I write to see truth and lies
I write to see ugly cries of reality
That shout to me through printed ink
I write to think about an exodus of things that come to me
late at night.
I write to hear the shouts and screams
Of nightmare dreams of hell
While smiles stretch skin across off- white teeth.
I write to hear.
To listen to the words of which i cannot bear to think
About the stink that pierces early morning air
I hear thoughts of vagrants who wander without a care
Along abandoned streets.
You see, I write to feel
Things which I am not allowed to say
Things that I will reminisce on one day and laugh and cry
Things which scare me
Because sometimes it is just me that I see
Through my pen.
And I feel me
And I feel who I am not and who I am meant to be
And all the feelings that I have got to write.
And still I write
To be.
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