Haven't blogged in a bit.......

I felt compelled to this space today. I don't know why. Maybe because I used to use this space as a place to vent and just let go of all the things I felt and had no one to say it too.....and now I am back in that place I guess.....to an extent.

This is the update. The fact:- I am in love.
BLEH.
and it does NOT feel good.

Strange.

I have been in love for 3 years....3 YEARS! and I only realised last month when I finally spoke to this person of my dreams. (Person x)

CRAZY!

Now for the BLEH part. .....
The person of my dreams loves someone else and has been in a 3 year relationship.
Again I reiterate......
BLEH.

So what do I do? Sigh.......

The fact:-
I forget how to breath when I see person x...for 3 years I have been forgetting how to breathe, and even if I see person x a lot now, it still happens.

So here is the question:
What is to be in love?
STEUPS.

another question:-
Am I waiting in vain and placing false trust and hope in prayer and in the secret?

Another fact:-
I want someone who loves me AS MUCH AS AND EVEN MORE THAN I love them.

The fact:
I guess I have a wait that's longer than expected.

SIGH